Ok, so it’s been roughly 4 months since I’ve updated last…oopsie :o/
When I wrote last, I had written on how I may not partake in PSP 2012 in August. That is still up in the air. I’ve realized that this is mainly Brian’s thing, but I still need to support him in hobbies just as he has supported me in mine. Of course, given his current health status, I may be forced to go anyways. When I last wrote about Brian’s health, the doctors were thinking that he may be having small seizures and that this was the cause of the dizziness that he was experiencing. This is still the train of thought, however, he has also started to have syncopal vasovagal episodes where he passes out when checking his blood sugar. It doesn’t happen every time he checks it, but twice in 1 week is more than enough for me. I think it may reach a point in which I am no longer able to work because I’ll have to keep an eye on him 24/7. I really hope it doesn’t reach that point, but ya never know. The neurologist he sees now thinks that he has sleep apnea on top of everything else, mainly because he awakens in the morning—he’s still tired and not refreshed (not to mention he snores like no other!) Since he’s having these episodes and taking anti-seizure meds, he’s not supposed to be driving (state of Michigan kinda frowns on it I guess), so this means I technically have to drive him wherever he goes. If he’s going someplace close to home, then he’ll drive. Other than that…just call me chauffeur. We go see the sleep specialist next month and we’ll go from there. Speaking of next month, why doesn’t it seem to take so long to get into see a doctor or get a test done? This isn’t Canada for Pete’s sake!
The last four months have seen the birth of Ducktastic Photography, which is my own little on the side photography business. Granted, it’s taken off like a snail in a NASCAR race but it’ll get there in its own time. I’m glad it’s gotten off to a rather slow pace because with everything that’s going on lately, I just don’t have the time to focus on it fulltime. Between working funky hours at work and school and trying to figure out what’s going on with my husband has pretty much consumed all of my time.
Speaking of the first 2 out of those 3, I guess I can update what’s going on with those as well. Work is well…work. There are times in which going there takes every fiber of my being and there are other days where it’s not so bad. Lately, it’s been an even combination of both. Morale is relatively low compared to this time last year, but the economy has taken a turn for the worse and there’s just more coming out of the paycheck than what’s available to take home. Obviously, this makes people really upset-->upset people complain-->continuous complaints drive down morale.
School, like work, is what it is. I’m almost done, just 9 classes to go! I’ve realized the downside of taking online classes—ok, I realized this a while ago but just now decided to admit it—they’re not challenging enough for me. Not in the least bit. The only challenge for me is to actually sit down and read the book/material. The stuff that is presented isn’t anything that I can’t Google myself or research for my own personal knowledge. I think I may do my master’s degree on campus after this experience. My fear in doing that, though, is that I may realize how little I actually learned from my online classes and will become the failure that I have worked so hard to not become.
